I originally wrote Shuffled Soul while studying in Salzburg, during a time when relationships, intimacy, and many of the emotions connected to them still felt completely new to me. I was collecting experiences faster than I could understand them. Everything seemed important, everything triggered another thought or feeling, and none of it arrived in a clean or manageable order.
The song captures that particular kind of emotional overload: being disoriented, helpless, fascinated, and slightly suspended — but not necessarily wanting it to stop. There is confusion in it, but also pleasure. The ground may have disappeared for a moment, yet hanging in mid-air can feel exciting when you have never been there before.
The arrangement mirrors that state. Shuffled Soul combines elements of 1980s synthpop and new wave with more modern, quirky electronic details. Parts appear, collide, interrupt one another, and shift the balance before anything can settle completely. It can feel chaotic, but never heavy or static. There is always movement, curiosity, and a slightly playful quality beneath the panic.
What I like about the track now is that it doesn’t pretend those first experiences were tidy or emotionally mature. They weren’t. It preserves the sensation of a younger self trying to process something with no reliable reference point - reaching for explanations, getting lost in the noise, and enjoying the strange transformation at the same time.
Shuffled Soul is about the moment another person enters your internal system and everything changes position. Nothing is destroyed, exactly. It is simply rearranged faster than you can follow.
Lyrics
Shuffled Soul
[Intro]
Information
Overload
I am losing control
And there's no
Explanation
[Verse 1]
Screens like windows into nothing
Open all at once
Headlines, numbers, little warnings
Beating like a drum
My mind keeps stacking noise on noise
Until it starts to ring
And I can't tell if I'm alive
Or just buffering
[Refrain]
Information
Overload
I am losing control
Soul is shifted
Towards you, my dear
And there's just no way
Way out of this misery
[Verse 2]
I scroll for something I can name
A reason, or a cure
But every answer multiplies
And nothing feels secure
I talk in fragments, half a thought
I swallow what I mean
And every signal folds into you
And everything else drops out of view
[Hook]
And there's no
Explanation
For these feelings
For my feelings
[Break / Spoken]
I keep thinking
If I find the right words
It will stop
But it doesn't stop
[Bridge]
Maybe it's chemical
Maybe it's fate
Maybe it's nothing
But it cuts the same
Maybe I'm hungry for a sign
In a world that won't explain
Maybe I'm just a human being
Trying not to drown in my own brain
[Hook]
And there's no
Explanation
For these feelings
For my feelings
[Outro]
Information
Overload
I am losing control
Soul is shifted
Towards you, my dear
And there's just no way
Way out of this misery