My Body Knows (In The Way)

This song started as something very raw — written in a moment where love didn’t feel like it was reaching me, even though the words were there. Back then, everything felt immediate and heavy. Like something fundamental wasn’t lining up, and I couldn’t understand why.

Looking at it now, almost twenty years later, it feels different. Not because it wasn’t real — but because memory has a way of softening the edges. Of keeping the warmth, the closeness, the small moments that felt like home, while letting the sharpness fade into the background. I leaned into that feeling for this version.

The song carries the same emotional truth, but it’s wrapped in something lighter — inspired by the kind of music that makes everything feel okay for a moment. 80s and 90s pop ballads and sitcoms from my childhood, a sense of comfort, familiarity, and a sprinkle of nostalgia.

There’s something almost deceptive about that contrast.

Because underneath the warmth, the same realization is still there: that you can be close to someone and still not be met. But now it doesn’t collapse under that weight anymore. It just… exists alongside it.

Lyrics

My Body Knows (In The Way)

[Verse 1]
You say it like a habit, like a line you memorized
Like it’s something you can throw at me when you don’t want to try
I’m standing right in front of you, my whole chest open wide
And you look straight through me like I’m asking for too much
Like I’m asking for your blood

[Prechorus]
I don’t need perfect, I don’t need pretty
I need you to mean it when you’re with me
But every time you say the words
It feels like you’re somewhere else

[Chorus]
In the way
That you tell me
That you love me
Lies no truth
In the way
That I feel it
It falls short
every time


[Verse 2]
You think love is staying, you think love is “I don’t leave”
But you can be right beside me and still not be with me
But I’m not asking for a promise, I’m not asking to feel “fine”
I’m asking you to be with me—without leaving all the time:
To let me in, to let me close

[Prechorus]
You hand me silence, call it “peace”
You call it “fine” when I’m on my knees
And I’m so tired of translating
What should be spoken plain

[Chorus]
In the way
That you tell me
That you love me
Lies no truth
In the way
That I feel it
It falls short
every time


[Bridge]
Maybe you mean it in your language
Maybe you think this is enough
But I’m not built for empty sentences
I can’t survive on borrowed love
Don’t tell me “always” like a warning
Don’t tell me “forever” like a shield
If you can’t hold me when I’m breaking
If you can’t feel what I can feel

[Breakdown]
Say it again—
Look at me when you do
Say it again—
And watch me not believe you

[Final Chorus]
In the way
That you tell me
That you love me
Lies no truth
In the way
That you hold me
Like you’re nowhere
I fall through

[Outro]
We’re in the same room
But you’re not here