My Body Knows (In The Way)

I wrote this during my first long-term relationship, at a point where I was desperately trying to understand why “love” wasn’t landing the same way for both of us. For me, love meant something unconditional and enduring—something you stand in—while for him it felt more like a present-tense truth: what he felt right now, without the same weight of permanence. The lyrics live in that hurt: hearing “I love you” delivered like a habit, sensing absence behind the words, and feeling like you have to translate basic needs into a language that still doesn’t reach the other person. it’s not a calm reflection written years later; it’s the moment of realizing that you can be in the same room and still not be met. Looking back I’d write it differently today, but this version is honest to who I was then—someone asking for real presence and feeling the floor drop when it isn’t there.. or I couldn’t see it. The original Version of that song was only the Refrain.. Like a mantra. With Strings responding to the lyrics ant the song becoming more and more raw and the beats more and more distorted. Reflecting on it now i decided to make it a more vulnerable song and i mixed in experiences form many more relationships, both with myself and others.

Lyrics

My Body Knows (In The Way)

[Verse 1]
You say it like a habit, like a line you memorized
Like it’s something you can throw me when you don’t want to try
I’m standing right in front of you, my whole chest open wide
And you look straight through me like I’m asking for too much
Like I’m asking for your blood

[Prechorus]
I don’t need perfect, I don’t need pretty
I need you to mean it when you’re with me
But every time you say the words
It feels like you’re somewhere else

[Chorus]
In the way
That you tell me
That you love me
Lies no truth
In the way
That you tell me
That you love me
Lies no truth


[Verse 2]
You think love is staying, you think love is “I don’t leave”
But you can be right beside me and still not be with me
But I’m not asking for a promise, I’m not asking to feel “fine”
I’m asking you to be with me—without leaving all the time:
To let me in, to let me close

[Prechorus]
You hand me silence, call it “peace”
You call it “fine” when I’m on my knees
And I’m so tired of translating
What should be spoken plain

[Chorus]
In the way
That you tell me
That you love me
Lies no truth
In the way
That you tell me
That you love me
Lies no truth


[Bridge]
Maybe you mean it in your language
Maybe you think this is enough
But I’m not built for empty sentences
I can’t survive on borrowed love
Don’t tell me “always” like a warning
Don’t tell me “forever” like a shield
If you can’t hold me when I’m breaking
If you can’t feel what I can feel

[Breakdown]
Say it again—
Look at me when you do
Say it again—
And watch me not believe you

[Final Chorus]
In the way
That you tell me
That you love me
Lies no truth
In the way
That you hold me
Like you’re nowhere
I fall through

[Outro]
We’re in the same room
But you’re not here