Fear in my Bones

Music ·

Original music and lyrics by Gernot Ottowitz. Produced with the help of suno.ai

Electronic Ambient

This song is me recognizing a pattern I know too well: standing still because doubt feels safer than movement, and then slowly remembering that even the smallest step can be enough to start loosening the grip of fear.

This song came out of a familiar state for me: knowing I need to move, but feeling held back by hesitation, overthinking, and the need to understand everything before taking the next step. What makes it different is that it isn’t written from the heat of that frustration, but from a later place - more as an observation than an outcry. The lyrics look at that inner standstill with a certain calm: fear is there, doubt is there, the mind keeps pulling backwards, but none of it is dramatized more than necessary. Musically, the track mirrors that ambivalence really well: it has a steady, almost monotonous electro pulse, but the synths are warm and rounded, and the arpeggios keep reaching upward, as if the song is already quietly moving toward a solution while describing the problem. So even though it starts in uncertainty, it doesn’t stay there - the real core of the song is in that final shift: not knowing, and beginning anyway.

Lyrics

Fear in my Bones

[Verse 1]
On the edge of 
peace once more I
Realize again
There is no knowing 
where this will lead me
I’m full of doubt again

[Pre-Chorus]
Fear in my bones, 
it won’t allow for free falling
My hesitations, 
they break my speed 
and I forsake

[Chorus]
Just pick a direction and go
How do I know?
Just make up your mind and flow

[Verse 2]
I want to trust the
 little moments
More than my control
I want to stop 
rehearsing endings
Before the truth  unfolds

[Pre-Chorus]
Fear in my bones, 
keeps on asking for reasons
My mind pulls back,
but life won’t pause for my brakes

[Chorus]
Just pick a direction and go
How do I know?
Just make up your mind and flow

[Bridge]
I feel the gravity
pull at my chest
I try to hold on
and it holds me less
So I loosen my grip
on what I can’t see
And the moment opens
around me

[Breakdown / Half Chorus]
Just pick a direction and go
Even slow
Just make up your mind and flow
Let it grow

[Final Chorus]
Just pick a direction and go
How do I know?
Just make up your mind and flow

[Outro]
On the edge of peace once more I
Realize again
There is no knowing where this will lead me
So I begin
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